So here's the question...how does one describe doubting themselves but finding that that makes them rely on God's image of them more...that a sunny disposition or "strong" personality is, in fact, genuine even in the face of internal struggle...that that is, in fact, God's work through them and in spite of them...that it's not to be pitied but to be wrestled with because somehow God is working through it all even when it hurts and causes some big questions...that life is, in many ways, one big juxtaposition of what we know and what we believe and that the journey towards making those the same is often long and full of ups and downs...that sometimes we live what we know so that what we believe will eventually align with the former...how does one put the struggle of figuring out who they are and who they are becoming into words?